Friends!

The interaction between friends can be very dynamic at times that i really don't understand. I had this friendship that i built up since beginning of last year and i really thought that we can be considered as quite close friends from my perspective. However, friendships doesn't go two way equally. Imposing the law of physice, there is action and reaction in the terms of friendship but i don't really think that equilibrium can be obtained necessarily and that is what had happened to my friendship recently. I realized that my friend has got along very well with another friend of mine whom they only knew not long after being introduced via me. They have formed such great friendship together that i realized that i was out of the equation already. This is quite depressing as I realized that I wasn't really counted as my friend's close friend at all even though that i have put in a lot of effort in maintaining this friendship. The chinese adage - you harvest whatever that you plant; it doesn't really work that way. I felt like a little idiot sometimes. Why do i want to bother maintaining this friendship when in fact i wasn't really in your good books? Should i really care? Or should i be angry at myself for believing that i can be your friend?

Too good to be true

Don't get your hopes too high sometimes, the higher your hopes is the greater the disappointment can be. 

All these while, i've been trying to find a travel companion because one of my resolution this year is to travel and i really really want to go since i haven't been anywhere since last Beijing trip year 2007. When one of my friends ask me one day if i want to go travelling with her this August, I was so happy and really really thought that my prayers was met. I was so pumped that i went checking out tickets/accommodations/travelling guides, thinking that this is all so good to the extent that i really really couldn't believe it. Honestly, it's really too good 

to be true because now my friend told me again that she might not be able to go back due to swine flu reasons. I was really really devastated because all these while i've been trying to search for friends to go travelling with me. It's hard to get everyone to get leav

e at the same time or it could be distance purpose as i am in Australia and my good friends are everywhere in this world or a difficulty in reaching consensus. Up to this age, i realized that it's really hard to find a travel companion. It's just me who is a bit naive thought that this can really be happening. 

                                                                                                                                                                         
Hong Kong ---- I really want to visit you...but i do not know when i can do that! But i am sure one day i'll be there....don worry!